Mr. Insightful

mr. insightful
is full of bullshit

but he has to be
to survive

is the smell
starting to get to me?

the little slights?
the little digs?

all so funny, ha ha ha.

starting to wear on me.

but if i say anything
i'm being too sensitive
too needy
too
too
too

so it is with you
i can't be too

that just wouldn't do

so i have to manage
and keep asking myself
if this is ok
if this set up is ok with me

for now it is
but my antennae is hyper aware right now
and my heart is set on alert

cause i'm growing a new kind of weary
not the crazy-i-can't-take-this-anymore 
kind of weary that i'm so familiar with
but a sad little weary in which i'm starting to think
starting to feel
like i don't just don't like this any more
but i can see too clearly what's going on
and my intolerance is growing

for now i'll carry on
tentatively
cause i'm too weary
to actually address it
or do something about it

maybe i'll fade out
like a nondescript sunset
and you'll move on
to your next fuck
your next lay

and you'll tell her
about me
and you'll speak more fondly of me
than you ever did when i was near

cause that's just how you operate
09/20/10