Most of the wordy posts on this blog are from the email journal I kept during my years with the narc. I am now narc-free. The dates of the journal entries don't matter much, because the only things I wrote about were: 1. How crazy I felt and/or 2. How I was going to make this work. I left him so many times, I lost track. This time is for good, though. I know too much. I am keeping this blog for my own healing and processing, but I welcome you here with open arms. If you have been abused by a narcissist, I hope you are on your way out and find solidarity here.

Thursday, July 3, 2014

Don't Panic

you panic
it's all about panicking

that you did too much
that he's fuming about you
that he'll pull away again
that you're screwed

no.
breathe.

you may go and find him later.
you will connect later.

just for now
let go.
no, really let go.

don't panic.
don't freeze.
don't obsess.

go.
09/15/10
postnote: this journal entry about sums it up, my relationship with the narc...always trying not to panic, not to obsess...
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