Most of the wordy posts on this blog are from the email journal I kept during my years with the narc. I am now narc-free. The dates of the journal entries don't matter much, because the only things I wrote about were: 1. How crazy I felt and/or 2. How I was going to make this work. I left him so many times, I lost track. This time is for good, though. I know too much. I am keeping this blog for my own healing and processing, but I welcome you here with open arms. If you have been abused by a narcissist, I hope you are on your way out and find solidarity here.

Friday, June 27, 2014

Bend with the Breeze

so, i have my sad little moments.

but overall, i'm ok.

so i'll carry on.

blow through the sad moments.

feel them, if i must.

but this is the best way i know how
to not let you hurt me.

it still hurts
but i am in control.

not full control
i'm not delusional

but it gives me power
where i had none

so that is progress

i think
i hate being wishy washy
but i also detest being fully sure

so that leaves me somewhere 
in the middle

on solid ground
willing to bend with the breeze
11/4/10
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