Most of the wordy posts on this blog are from the email journal I kept during my years with the narc. I am now narc-free. The dates of the journal entries don't matter much, because the only things I wrote about were: 1. How crazy I felt and/or 2. How I was going to make this work. I left him so many times, I lost track. This time is for good, though. I know too much. I am keeping this blog for my own healing and processing, but I welcome you here with open arms. If you have been abused by a narcissist, I hope you are on your way out and find solidarity here.

Friday, December 19, 2014

Could not love him into love

I kick myself for hanging on for so long.

 I feel silly, nay, stupid, for holding on so long.

 I question my sanity for going back,

 going back, going back so many times.

 Then I think this:

 I tried to love him into love.

But it was impossible.

He is forever

 and always

 unlovable.

 Because he refuses to be loved.
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